Enough is enough!

Today a seemingly constant theme ran through the text conversation between my dad and I today:
Being enough. 
Both facing our own insecurities as to what it meant to be enough. Enough of a provider, enough of a husband, enough of a daughter, enough of an example, enough of a student, enough of a granddaughter... the list is relative and ultimately endless. But you know what is endless? My tolerance for allowing the world's standards to define who I am and what makes me good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, likeable enough, just enough. 
All my life I've been fooled into believing that if I looked the part, and played the part, that if my report card looked the way certain people expected to and if society saw me as a good fit, that I'd be happy and people would want and love me.
WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?
None of that matters. 
Sorry, let me make sure you got that: what ever you think it is that makes you _____ enough, none of it matters. 
Now, some of you out there may be thinking: "But if I don't have good enough marks then I'm not going to get the scholarship/job/whatever it is that I want and everyone is going to be disappointed in me.." And yes, that's true you may not get that scholarship or whatever it is your stressing over - that's not what I'm getting at. 
What I am trying to tell you is that if you're doing your best, that's all anyone can ask of you, including YOURSELF. Quit comparing yourself to others. If you look around and consider the people that you want to see you as enough, the ones you want to be proud of you, the ones you want to love you, I can almost guarantee that if they are people that you should truly have in your life that they are going to support you through your failures, wanting nothing more than for you to succeed - even if that means failing by the world's status quo. 
That there, was an incredible difficult concept for me to grasp, and in all honesty, I haven't grasped it in its entirety. 
Today it really hit me when, using all the tact and compassion I could, I stood up to someone who means a lot to me but I have spent my entire life catering to, doing everything to make them happy. I didn't have any peace until I told this person that I believed I was doing all that I could, and that after all this time, all I could hope is that they'd be happy for me. They haven't said anything to me yet, but I'm okay with what I said and am proud of myself for saying it.
Anyways, the real point of this was to say maybe it's about time some of us re-evaluate why it is we're striving to get to, or to accomplish, or complete what it is we are. To think about who it is we're trying to impress...our parents? society? our social network 'friends'?...maybe it's time for us to take a step back, look at our lives and let out a whopping "Who cares?!" and carry on.
Today when I realized that pass or fail, right or wrong, I have people that are still going to be there loving me and encouraging me no matter what, that was the best inspiration to do my best I could've asked for. It dawned on me that I've been doing "this" all wrong, trying to please people that I didn't even know and people that aren't even in my life anymore; people that don't matter. 
Dr Seuss once said something like: 'Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind'....what a smart guy he is... 

Listen, I'm not saying that you should just give up and live just for whatever it is that makes you happy, because that's not how life works (if it did, I'd be on a snowboard somewhere with a fresh blanket of snow, or somewhere in Ireland finding my husband)..You have to work , and some of us have to work harder than others, but that doesn't make us worth any less. And that doesn't mean we can't be happy while doing it. It just means that we need to recheck our "why" and our "for who" that we're doing all it is that we're doing. 

I guess more than anything, to all of those of you who read this.. Consider this to be my public declaration that from here on out, I'm just going to try my best and pass or fail, I'm going to stay true to who I am and who I've been created to be. Because that's all I can do; be me...and I guess if you don't like who that is, than that's really just too bad for you.