new beginnings also known as RIGHTNOW

Alright here's your visual: I'm sitting on a chair much to tall for me at a table much too tall for me, in Starbucks watching the cars drive down the busy street, drinking a caramel macchiato, and listening that Tracy Chapman, Colbie Caillat and Serena Ryder. I should be studying psychology, but I digress.
I found myself thinking that I couldn't wait for this term and more importantly, this year to be over, just so that I could be home working, make some money, just to be passing the time waiting for next year to start. Now, as much as I am truly excited for next year and all the adventures, classes, and boxes of kraft dinner that I'm sure will accompany it... what's my hurry? I know that I'm excited for this next stage in my life with my first official apartment, potentially living with my best friend, and overall the new beginning, but this is where I become a total hypocrite. I've always been a firm believer that if you want to change something: Do it - and here I am sitting in a Starbucks day dreaming about how wonderful next year will be.
Hello Alyssa!
You can have your fresh start right now! Duh.
*face palm*
So here it goes, I've had goals, aspirations, and dreams sitting on the back burner for far too long. I've been waiting for other people, been held back by other people, and for what? Nothing. That's what.
This is my life, not theirs. I've been focusing all too much for far too long on all the people and obstacles that told me I couldn't do it instead of all the people and possibilities that told me I could. I've been listening the voices that told me I wasn't good enough, instead of the ones that said I was more than enough.
That was silly. That stops now.
I'm taking the reins of my life, I'm embracing my potential and all the opportunities (and even the struggles) that come with it.
I use the username "alyshines" for almost everything, does anyone else see the hidden word there? Just in case you can't see it, it's Shine. Yes, that means Aly Shines. It's about time I start living up to that. Because if you take the S of the end of Hines, throw it at the beginning, you get Shine. And I can do that, and no, I'm not just talking about my oily skin in the sun.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life - I'm gonna make it count!
(Here's a minuscule apology to all of you out there that have been telling me forever I can do anything I put my mind to and that I have some serious potential. I'm going to do my best to believe you from here on out. Aside from an apology, this is also me asking for all you out there to hold me accountable and to slap me upside the head when I start slide backwards - because believe me, you know as well as I do that it is bound to happen.)
Well, now that that's out of my system I should probably get back to, and by get back to, I mean start, my psychology reading.
Cheers.